and wanted to share some random thoughts (yeah the words that make you feel worse/feel better to follow :0)
One of the things I remember most about my dad's wake and funeral were ALL the people who came to say many, many, many kind words....It was grueling, his wake was New Years Eve 12.31.96...if that didn't suck BIG TIME...kind of appropriate though,...an ironic closing of sorts.....
your Pa was loved and admired by a lot of people too....those are the things to remember...all the people and how much they loved him...and all the friends of yours, your dads, your uncles and aunts who came to be with you, to share your sorrow...to be there for you....we'll always be here for you, yanno.
So my dear, today will be painful also...and you won't think it'll ever go away, and it won't ~~I won't lie to you, but it changes... the pain eases and then instead of crying when you hear a song, or drive by somewhere you used to go to together, or see a picture, or any random smell or sight that reminds you of Pa, you'll simply smile..it'll be a somewhat bittersweet smile, but a smile non the less.
He'll be happy to see it too, instead of the tears, and you'll always feel him with you.
I'm sure that he'll be very proud of you for the wonderful young man you are and you're only gonna get better as you age :0)
I do love you Andrew, the son I never had....I'm glad I have you in my life.
I'm here if you need me, text or call anytime.